Monster

I do not let anyone in unless I want them to. One at a time, if that ever happens. Due to more than one thing, obviously. It may come from one or more bad things, but that doesn't really count, actually. I am trying to open up my mind and heart, despite all the difficulties of the process and of the reasons why I'm doing it. The socialising hardship has been long misunderstood. It has been me who did not really want to understand. I do not think "understand" is the appropriate concept. I have never wanted to make the effort to show I do understand it, I just do not agree with it. I do not want to get lost in misleadings relationships, I just want to know I am doing well, that I will be fine, no matter what, no matter how. I hope I will not regret saying this but I will say it anyway: I will never lose the faith in the human being and our ability to change, to look for new goals, and to miss what we have left behind. I do not mean missing it so much you are sad, but wishing to see those things again. Not in the same way, of course. Nothing is as it was, as it has been. I cannot prevent my whishes from telling me to go to bed and rest for a week or longer. It has been my pleasure to meet your today.